Thursday, March 31, 2011

Proverbs 31:26

"When she speaks she has something worthwhile to say,  and she always says it kindly."

This morning has been eye opening and a bit hard to handle.   I am not accustomed to having my feelings hurt or hearing somebody say something about me that isn't positive.  In fact I couldn't tell you the last time it happened.  I actually heard it said and wow, I'm much more comfortable  with God's gentle reminders of areas that need some attention than I am with people pointing them out so blatantly.  

Wake up call?   Yes, indeed it was.  In truth what was said was clearly true and God has dealt with me in this area on more than one occasion and maybe hearing it come from somebody else was what it took for me to see that this particular issue was being seen by somebody besides God.   This was all the more real to me because of the message that Pastor Les presented to our students last night.   It was all about not having compartmentalized lives.   We should be the same person in every aspect of our lives.  I needed to see that the way I'm seen in this persons eyes are not the person I want to be.  I have repented, I will choose not to be offended especially since I can see how my actions and words could definitely be interpreted to be exactly what I was accused of being...yup, I know you want to know so here I go will confess that " I am a Complainer".

Lord, help me I don't want to be, I want to be a woman who speaks things that are worthwhile and spoken in kindness. I want to be a vessel of encouraging words that lift people up and make a difference in God's kingdom.   Father, I choose to make an adjustment to be more aware and to guard my tongue.  Help me to catch myself and change my way of seeing and thinking before I spout of words that are not good and pure and holy.   Thank you Father for sending Jesus so taht I can be forgiven and that I am capable of forgiving the one who hurt my feelings and walking in love instead of offense.    In Jesus name I pray, AMEN!