Recurring Dreams...

Reminding myself of the dreams of the skinny girl hiding inside of me...

• buying clothes off the rack of any store
• seat belts that fit correctly without being manipulated
• ability to wear a seat belt in all cars, not just some makes and models
• enjoying a day at the water park without shame and embarrassment
• being comfortable in movie theater seats
• para sailing
• canoeing
• white water rafting
• playing softball again
• underclothes that fit like they are supposed to
• taking pictures without trying to hide behind everybody else 
• picture taking without having to find the best angle for my face not to look fat
• 5 mile hike at Cade's Cove in Gatlinburg
• bike riding
• running a 5k (not walking)
• not choosing the handicap bathroom stall because the others feel to small
• feeling beautiful even if nobody tells me I am
• speaking in front of people without wanting to crawl under the podium because I feel like a cow
• not dreading going to the doctor because I know what they are thinking even if they don't say it.
• wearing a pretty dress and semi high heels for elegant night on a cruise and being comfortable and confident doing so.
• not needing a seat belt extender on an airplane
• not wanting to hide in the locker room at the gym
• changing clothes in the gym and not doing it in the bathroom stall (not that i would necessarily but i'd like to be comfortable doing so if i did)
• Sky Course on Carnival Sunshine