Purpose? What's Mine?

The new challenge at ASF is from Wanda - "Okay, I've thought about this a lot. I want to really challenge you this time. Take you out of your comfort zone, if you'll allow me. There are some scrappers out there who are really "raw" scrappers. They scrap the really emotional stuff, the intense stuff. They don't shy away from anything, and they don't just scrap cute pictures of their kids and pets (like me). Even if you have a "book of me" you're working on, you probably never thought about scrapping your painful moments, or embarrassing faults, or searing self-doubts. I challenge you to do that this week. Scrap something you thought you would NEVER scrap. Never put to paper. Never post for public consumption. "

It was harder than I thought to put something so personal on paper, but I'm actually thankful for this challenge because it is something I probably never would have considered doing a scrapbook page about. And one day in the future if somebody down the line were to wonder if I had grieved my whole life for the children I never had, then they can look and see that though that place in my heart still longs for those children, I have found peace and am truly no longer at war with infertility.

So here is my take on this challenge:

Purpose? What's Mine?

Journaling:

Up to this time in my life my heart has been

convinced that my reason for being was to have kids and

raise them in a Godly home and serve Him all the days of their life.

Though hope will live in me as long as I have breath,

I am no longer at war with infertility.

I have found God's peace.

But, now what is my purpose?

Lord - please show me and then equip me.